..confuse..

kalau betul kitorang yang salah, takkan sampai semua orang pun salah? confuse kan? tapi hati aku kata kalau sekali je kau jadi camtu takpe la. tapi kalau kau dah buat berkali2 camne plak? itu munkin bisikan syaitan jugak tu. hati kitorang pun sakit jugak. ukhwah fillah tu bukan jadi sebelah pihak je. semua orang pun patut terlibat kan? heh. hati aku kata lagi "ah! suka hati la nak jadi apa?" tapi hakikatnya aku tetap berfikir dan kadang-kadang mengganggu fikiran aku. hakikatnya i do love u even sometimes i dont want to. confuse lagi. mungkin salah aku. kene banyak lagi reflect diri sendiri ni.
ya Allah ampun kan dosa hambaMu ini dan tunjukkan aku jalan ya Allah. semoga semua kembali seperti biasa.

at time like this, i need my family, i feel belong just being with them. we did fight sometimes but deep down inside i know they will always be there for me. loving me unconditionally. or maybe its just me having some sort of problem being too close with someone other than family. i feel pity for someone who didnt have this family bonding. i really do. i am grateful for each and everyone i love in my life. without them, i dont think i can face this world. and of course i need Allah the most. without Him i wont be existed in this world and i wont have the lovely people i have in my life now. i do want to erase some people in my life though, but maybe that is the best for me to learn something in this life. Allah know the best what i need.

p/s: crap entry and crap feeling. maybe because the exam is just around the corner and im started to feel the pressure. hehe.