..hari merah..

we coincidentally wearing red today :D

so, its a red day!

..old..

will u grow old with me?

..masih sama..

mereka kata
makin lama makin senang
makin biasa
makin mudah menyesuaikan diri
tapi mungkin tidak bagi saya

rasa itu masih sama seperti dulu

masih terasa susah berjauhan dari mereka yang tersayang

masih rasa rindu yang sama
masih terasa tidak selamat seperti dulu
masih ragu-ragu dengan keputusan sendiri
masih terasa muda walaupun sebenarnya usia makin meningkat
masih kurang yakin pada diri
masih terasa ingin dimanja
masih terasa ingin dijaga oleh keluarga
masih ingin diberitahu mana yang betul dan mana yang salah
masih ingin mendengar mereka mengingatkan saya
masih ingin disuap bila makan
masih ingin bergaduh dengan abang-abang
masih mahu berkelakuan seperti anak-anak kecil
masih mahu diberi perhatian
masih mahu kehidupan diurus mereka
masih mahu mereka buat keputusan untuk saya

tapi saya tahu
saya patut jadi lebih matang
patut lebih tahu menilai mana yang baik dan mana yang buruk
patut tahu menguruskan hidup sendiri
patut tidak berkelakuan seperti anak-anak kecil
patut ada tujuan hidup
patut menyusun kehidupan
patut mampu memikul tanggungjawab sendiri
patut berkelakuan seperti orang dewasa
patut tahu buat keputusan sendiri

kadang-kadang,
saya ingin kekal kanak-kanak
tidak perlu memikirkan apa-apa
tidak perlu risaukan apa-apa
hanya perlu risau tentang permainan hari esok
tidak ada tanggungjawab yang perlu dipikul
hanya bermain dengan gembira
menangis apabila susah
tidak risau pandangan orang lain

kadang-kadang,
saya mahu pulang ke zaman kanak-kanak saya
tidak perlu jaga hati semua orang
hanya ingin gembira dan bermain sahaja

..why it has to end..

this summer has come to its end
i really dont want it to end
the summer is the time where i can spend with my sayangs
spending time with my family is like having chocolate all day long
spending time with my little nephew alwiz makes me smile although sometimes he annoys me a lot
but i juz couldnt stop smiling when he hugs and kiss me to make it up with me :D
spending time with my crazy cousins makes me forget a while that all of us are growing up
it still feel like we were kids
and of course spending time with him makes me feel a lot happier
he alwiz know how to make me smile
and that makes me love him even more :D

who says departing get easier each time
for me departing from my love ones still getting harder each time
saying goodbye never been easy
it alwiz makes me feel like crying everytime i say goodbye
being away from them makes me real sad
luckily i have my friends here who make this departing part a lot easier

now the summer has end
it means,
another 10 months being far away from my love ones
another 10 months with books, assignment, test, exam
but hey,
look at the bright side
this also mean another 10 months i can spend my time with my friends who feel like family
the ones who alwiz have my back when all my love ones are far far away from me
i have to admit they make adelaide feel likes home by having them beside me
thanks a lot friends(dora, sal, nab, shafnah, khaty and also to all my friends in adelaide who make adelaide feel likes home)

and now the focus should be given to the 'pharmacist-in-the-making'
doing practical in hospital makes me really feel excited to become a pharmacist
so i promise myself to study hard this time
like one of my preceptor said,
"u should learn by heart, not just for the sake of exam"
and because of that i promise myself to struggle hard