..gembira..

happy mode on.

thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah.

decision is made. lets hope its for the best.

..jealous..

kadang-kadang saya cemburu dengan kehidupan orang laen
pastu rase tak bersyukur plak.
tapi betul cemburu.
mungkin bukan kehidupan la.
tapi ade sesuatu yang saye cemburu.
saye cemburu dengan kasih-sayang itu
dan bagaimana mereka meluahkan kasih-sayang itu.
di mana-mana sahaja mereka luahkan.
saya cemburu.

betul.

tak tipu.

tak bersyukurkah saya?

forgive me Allah for having this feeling.

..alhamdulillah..

found the calculator already! i left it in pharmaceutics laboratory the other day. terima kaseh nabilah tolong ambik kan. u are the best. terima kasih ya Allah kerana mengurniakan sahabat sebaek nabilah dan mengilhamkan pemikiran itu. Alhamdulillah.

ini kawan saye nabilah zainuddin. die suke buat aksi-aksi pelik bile amik gambar. hehe.

enough to make me happy :) thank you Allah for the feeling.

Hebatkan DIA? dalam sekelip mata DIA menghadiahkan perassan ini.

..sedih..

calculator hilang di saat peperiksaan hampir tiba

enough to make me sad :(

..future

..scares the hell out of me. it so vague and no one knows what gonna happens in the future. i feel sorry for a friend of mine. i always thought she's gonna have a wonderful life. but it doesnt turn out like what i thought. but who is me to predict the future. im praying and hoping whatever happen in the future ill be able to go through it and have the strength to go through the future. last two nite i have fight with someone important in my life about future that we plan to be better than our previous generation. again, who are us to predict the future. we can only plan the future but the future is in HIS hand to be written. ya Allah semoga kau berikan aku kekuatan untuk melalui masa depan yang kau tuliskan untuk ku. ape pun mase depan itu.

friend, if u ever need me. ill alwiz be here for u. ya Allah berikan kekuatan dan ketabahan kepada sahabatku. amin.

..bergembira di hujung minggu..

last weekend im having a great time with my friends (seperti selalu la hujung minggu mase berparti..hehe)

last thursday dora, kathy and me went to watch the phantom of the opera at adelaide entertainment centre. i never know i enjoy theater so much. the performance, the band, the song, the stage. i enjoy everything. at first i agree to watch the theater because i wanna gain an experience but im glad i agree because i really enjoy the show. plus the performer who plays Raoul in the performance is so handsome and hot. sangat kacak tak tipu. hehe.

last friday, we (pharmacist students) having our own little private party here in brompton. seperti biasa aktiviti makan2 menjadi program utama. then, we chit-chatting and playing game called silent killer. its a good game. haha. ade yg tensen jadi pembunuh tapi yang seronoknye ade jugak yg tensen jadi polis sampaikan menyerah diri awal sebab taktau camne nak tangkap pembunuh. haha. ade yang taktau nak kenyit mata bunuh orang n ade jugak yg salah kenyit mata sampaikan org tak faham yg die sedang membunuh. haha. jadi bykla aksi-aksi sepanjang permainan itu. hehe. all in all im having a good friday with my SIT friends. thanks for coming guys. do come again next time and we can have a party again? hehe.

on the friday night
me, dora, kathy n yasmin went to watch angels and demons. still not as best as you read the book but way better than da vinci code. okay la not so bad. but i dont like the ending. too clean ending. the ending in the book is better. but overall its ok.

on saturday n sunday i have a great time again with my friends here in adelaide. the friends who i feel bless having them in my life. the friends who will always be there with me through ups and downs. the friends who will tell me honestly and frankly when im wrong. the friends who together with me trying to be a better person day by day. the friends who i love so much.

again, thank you friends! my friends is one of the reason why i always looking forward to my weekend. hehe :D

i hope to be comfort

i hope to be loved

not to be mad at

not to be yelled at

not to be hated

last nite was rough

i love u

..incomplete..

my days always been great
and i feel grateful for that
im bless having such good and wonderful friends here in Adelaide that makes each my day very enjoyful and blissful.
having each of them in my life make the part of being away from my love ones a lot easier.


but still,
at the end of my day,
something is always missing, incomplete
there is a hole in my chest in each end of my day.
i wish we could be near to each other.
do the tiny little things together.



rindu yang tak pernah hilang.

..mak's day..

saya sayang sangat mak saye,



mak saya ni comel tau. kalau keluar dengan die bile orang tanye saye siape die akan kate saye ni adik die sebab nampak mude selalu. boleh tak? dia seorang yg sangat tabah juga. besarkan saye n abang-abang saye seorang diri. kasihan die. bersusah-payah untuk kami 3 beradik ni. dah la kami ni nakal. mesti mak makan hati selalu sebab nak besarkan kami. dah la kami adik-beradik keras kepala. macam mane eh die boleh tahan ngan sume karenah kami? memang die seorang supermom tau! die lagi pentingkan keselamatan kami dari keselamatan die, sakit kami dari sakit die, kesusahan kami dari kesusahan die. selalunye kalau saye sedih n down saye akan murung n tak lalu makan. mak saye pun akan murung n tak lalu makan juga bile die tgk saye camtu. macam-macam die masak kan untuk saye supaye saye makan, baik kan die? die keje tak kire masa nak besarkan kami. tapi kadang-kadang saye sakitkan hati die, marah kat die. tak baik kan saye? mak saye sanggup je layan karenah saye tapi saye akan melenting bile mak saye marah sikit. maafkan saye mak. saye akan cuba jadi anak yang baik. mak saye kelakar jugak orang nye. saye telefon die semalam.



saye: mak



mak: ye, ade ape telefon?



saye: nak tanye resepi nak buat sate ni. dah lupe.



mak: ye ke. mak ingatkan nak ucapkan selamat hari ibu ke nak bagi hadiah hari ibu ke.



saye: hehe. nanti saye balik saye bagi hadiah eh. *sambil rase mak saye comel n gelak*



my mom is the best. i wouldnt trade her with anything in this world. Ya Allah bahagiakan hidup ibu ku Ya Allah sebagai mana dia telah membahagiakan aku.



mak, saye sayang sangat mak

..random feeling..

these are what i feel now

• have u ever feel there is a hole in your chest when u missing someone?i feel like that. im missing everyone back in malaysia. my family, my annoying little nephew; haikal and of course my sunshine; encik mohd taufiq aqmal.
• did u ever feel like u wanna quit study and be a housewife because u thought it might be easier than studying to become a pharmacist?that is what i feel now. can i quit now and just prepare myself to become a housewife?haha.
• have u ever ask urself why u choose to be a pharmacist in the first place? that is what i feel now. ok i've been asking this question too many times kan? tapi serious sometimes i feel like that. haih!
• have u ever think why u wanna study at overseas when ur country have many good tertiary education centre? ok, this bad. ungrateful me kan? orang lain punyela bersusah payah nak study kat luar negara tapi saye rase camni. it just a thought though. but i shouldnt think like that kan? bad me. i know.
• have u ever feel like u wanna accelerate the time to friday (because it is the day my weekend starts. hehe) when its just only the first day of the week which is monday? i alwiz feel like that. i like my weekend because its time to be away from those boring notes and books on my desk and its time for party! haha
• i realized that im getting bored making products in my pharmaceutics practical. i used to feel really excited everytime its the time for pharmaceutics practical. but somehow after 3 years, i guess i loss the excitement along the way. haha. u get bored when u have to do something so many times right? tapi..tapi that is what my job is kan. making products for the others good. hehe. aiyo! seriously how im going to be a good pharmacist ni.
• i realized that my pharmaceutics lecturer, Dr. Des William alwiz ask the same question everytime he see me since the first year. his question is, "selamat petang, apa khabar? bagus. sangat bagus." i think it is because that are the only words in bahasa melayu that he knows. haha. maybe i should teach him new words kan? kawan-kawan setuju?
• have u ever feel that u should study because the test is just around the corner but yet u still here blogging about a random thing? that is what i feel right now. i have applied pharmacotherapeutics test this friday but yet im still here blogging about nothing. haha. blogging seems more interesting than those notes on my desk. seriously. dush!
• and now i think i should start reading those notes now if i still wanna be here in adelaide (yela kalo tak sure JPA anta balik malaysia sebab fail kan).