..so i am home..

finally

i am home
a big YEAY!
for i wait this very moment a long time ago
however,
the feeling is not as 'yeay' as i imagine
something is still missing
that 'someone' that i really wanna meet when im here
is not really here
i havent heard from him since im landing here,
in malaysia

you know who you are
please contact me
please do so
i will wait

but the family
im happy with them
i gonna cherish every moment with them as long as i am here

and i bet,
my summer will be great
and it will be more great if i could spend the whole summer with him

..fear..

im scared,
the feeling might fade away

im scared,
i might not feel it anymore

im scared,
i might lost the feeling

the feeling that i cherish all this while

..nothing..

during the exam week, i was hoping the exam finish faster
now that the exam had finished
i dun really feel the excitation after finishing exam
i wonder what happen to the feeling

i want to treasure the feeling
the feeling that i thought would be great
but now, i guess i will never really feel it, right?

..sometimes I forget..

"But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you;

and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you.

And Allah Knows, while you know not"(2:216)

..kecewa..

semalam saya dah bercinta puas-puas dengan makhluk halus
berjam-jam saya luangkan masa dengan dia
untuk cari kata putus
tentang hubungan saya dengan dia
sampai penat jari jemari saya terangkan pada dia
betapa dalamnya cinta saya padanya
tapi saya sedikit kecewa
tak seperti yang saya harapkan
tapi tidak mengapa lah
saya dah berusaha sedaya upaya
sekarang saya akan tunggu balasan cinta dari dia
semoga cinta saya akan dibalas

..whatever..

kalau setakat nak mengamuk
dan lepaskan geram kat aku

BACK OFF!

..easy yet hard..

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because

even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,

you are one day closer to the next time you will see them again."